| | Jeeze, it's been almost 3 months. 1/4 of a year. Time flies. A TON of crap has happened in my life since last I posted. This is going to be a long post describing all the bullshit I've been put through the past few months.
I had been having really bad abdominal pain since the end of March. And, slowly it kept getting more intense and last longer each time it happened. By the end of June I was vomiting because it was so uncomfortable. So, I went to the Emergency Room because I was really scared because I'd been having the pain everyday for over a week and couldn't think of any reason why. Long story short -- after doing blood and urine tests, and taking some x-rays of my abdomen -- they tell me that there is nothing wrong with my appendix or gall bladder and that I more than likely just have irritable bowel syndrome. This made me feel better...but at the same time, I knew A LOT of people with IBS and they never had severe abdominal pain and in their UPPER abdomen nonetheless.
So I dealt with the pain for yet another month until I couldn't handle it anymore. I made an appointment with my doctor (and it just so happened that I started itching like hell....no rash, no nothing....just relentless itching all over my body). I went to the doctor and told her everything and about the itching. So, she got some blood and scheduled me for a CAT scan. The CAT scan came back normal and all my bloodwork was normal except my liver enzymes were 4 times higher than normal.  I expected they might be a little elevated because they had been in the past. So, off I go to see a liver specialist. He had me get more bloodwork done and an ultrasound of my liver, pancreas, and gall bladder. I found out that I had gall stones and needed to have my gall bladder out and my bloodwork came back normal. This is the end of August...2 months after the ER told me my gall bladder was fine. Fuckers. I found out that they never should have commented on my gall bladder because you actually have to LOOK at it to tell if something is wrong. Bloodwork won't indicate a gall bladder problem.
Since I was having intense itching, the doc wanted me to have an MRI before I went to a surgeon to see if I had a stone stuck in my bile duct (the duct from your liver to your gall bladder). An MRI is the tube thing they stick you in and it's really loud. I now know what it's like to be in a coffin. Holy crap. I was in that tube for AN HOUR. It was supposed to take like 30 minutes. This was freaking me out because I thought they were probably finding all sorts of shit wrong in there. I was particularly uncomfortable because, since they were looking at my abdomen, I had to keep my arms up above my head. I'm not claustrophobic, but being in there for that long, with my arms in an uncomfortable position, and trying not to move, was starting to get to me. (plus the whole itching all over your body and not being able to scratch it thing was terrific) Anyway, the MRI came back normal...so, the itching was/is still unexplainable.
Sooooooo...September 6th, I had surgery to remove my gall bladder...it was tons of fun. At least my surgeon was hot.  I was informed by the nurse right before I went into surgery that since I was having laproscopic surgery (where they just make tiny incisions and use a camera to see inside instead of slicing you completely open...much less recovery time) that they have to pump my abdomen full of air until it looks like I'm 9 months pregnant. So, as you may or may not be able to imagine...going from never pregnant ever to 9 months pregnant and then back down to nothing in a matter of minutes is slightly painful. I felt like I did about 8971324 situps. I'm doing much better now, no more feeling like my stomach is exploding and I'm going to die at any minute...except for the fact that I am currently having an allergic reaction to either the stitches or the adhesive they used to keep the bandages on me. I've got this gross rash all around my incisions (I have 4, one on my side, one below my belly button, and 2 on my stomach)...and I think the rest of my body is freaking out too because I've got these itchy bumps all over my arms and legs...it's freaking me out. But, not to fear, I'm going to a dermatologist tomorrow...what? Did someone say yet ANOTHER doctor appointment!? YESSSSS!!!
So...if you've read this far...you're amazing. But, this has been my life the past few months. And, because I worry an absolutely ridiculous amount, I had myself worked up to the point where I was literally afraid I was dying and spent much of the time crying and being upset and afraid. Me being itchy and in pain and recovering from surgery and all this other crap has taken a toll on William and I's relationship. He's been really wonderful and supportive and helped me A LOT right after surgery. But, since I've been stressed and itchy and in pain...I haven't felt affectionate at all....in any way. OH! We moved in together in the middle of August (with 2 of my friends)...I forgot about that. So basically, ever since we've been living together it's like we're just roommates. He sleeps in his bed, I sleep in mine. Like I said, he's been amazing with all of it...but, it makes me feel bad. I just hope once I get completely better and non-itchy, things will go back to the way they always have been between us. I'm pretty confident they will. The 4 year anniversary is coming up in a little over a month.
School started back September 20th and I HATE it already. I'm just tired of being in school. I know I should appreciate it and be thankful that I'm able to go period...but, I don't. OSU's business school is really cut-throat and I feel like everyone knows so much more than I do. I'm just ready to be done and live my average life and get away from people that strive to be the CEO of a major coporation and make me feel like a nobody. Ugh.
Life is frustrating right now. 2006 has, in general, not been a good year for me. In January, the day before my birthday, I found out my grandpa was dying. The day before easter, he died. Shortly there after my health problems began and are still going on. The majority of this year has been spent crying, stressing, freaking out, worrying, etc. I really hope 2007 is going to be a better year than this one has been.
I'm done ranting now.
P.S.- This year hasn't been ALL bad. I've lost about 40 pounds in the past 6 months and I'm still continuing to lose. I'm very proud of myself for this and I know it's something that I need to do so down the road I don't end up with diabetes and all other sorts of fun stuff.
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| | Posted 10/4/2006 4:38 PM - 1 View - 4 eProps - 2 comments
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